a goodbye to 2024 and hello to 2025

it's that time of year again!

i dealt with a lot of burnout, mental health, sickness and injury this year. honestly-a lot of straight up apathy. i think a lot of my lust for life has been bled from my body-but we're getting there again. i'm very thankful to the wonderful people i've met; friends who i adore and everyone who was kind enough to chat to me. not even going to touch on the hot mess of the animation industry and AI

one of the highlights of this year; i got to met my best friend irl!!

fandom is so cool, and i'm so lucky i got to meet one of the kindest people i know. the only problem is time goes too fast, doesn't it?

so, how do you keep going?

i avoid this question a lot. whys. hows. it brings me down most times.

i think my answer is... i have to care, i just have to. i can't believe in others if i stop. i have to keep going, i have to keep making. maybe someone out there feels the same way i do. maybe i can get them to make something themselves, think about something in a new light, in two weeks from now, maybe when you see something that reminds you of my work, maybe you share it with a friend...

is that selfish? probably. but that's what i want. your attention. i don't care for much else.

maybe attention's the wrong word. i want your time. the moment you decided to read this. i think that's what draws me to animation and gamedev. there's something very interesting about using those mediums to play with time.

2025 plans

keep working on trophies. it's about 70% done. my brain has been bad but hopefully a fresh start will do it! weird girls forever!

get a permanent job. 3 week animation contracts dont cut it.

focus on this website-it brings me a lot of joy to have this much control over an online space.

open... a shop... i think i've been too kicked down by animation so i'm always surprised when people connect and enjoy my art. im very lucky.

MARKETING... it's time to master the art of posting!!!

get back into using traditional media, i miss my more looser sketches. my art seems so tightly strung. there's no breathing room.

finish some comics/doujins i've started!

finish a fanfic lol

attempt... to use this as my blog

i'd love to make a twst big bang; but let's put that on the backburner

EXTREMELY OUT THERE but i would love to hold my own visual novel jam :3 we'll see!!

2025 predictions

will we see the AI bubble burst? will we look back and go "why were we so worried about all that?"-that's my wishful thinking. im hoping for animation at least. but im concerned about the vfx industry.